Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[Faith-and-Hope]

Yeah @Former-Member

Received a text from WH a little while ago praising my efforts with my art piece ... he has seen the catalogue, and proclaimed my piece as good as the best ones in there, and much better than others that were chosen .... but it was always going to be that way amongst family and friends if the piece wasn't chosen .... I make the grade in terms of skill, I know that, it just boils down to what the judges are looking for, and they may have mistaken my work for a copy of a photograph outright without understanding that I referenced many photos and made extensive adaptions .... so in actual fact it's a compliment to the gift I have by default .... 😆

WH told me not to give up - I think now he has seen my work within a context like this - which is really something .... shows he is still in there somewhere underneath "the e.d. issue" with all its complexities ....

Thanks for asking 😊

🐟🐬🐳🐋🐬🐟💙

[Former-Member]

At least he tried. F&H. Love to get in the judges heads & know what their thinking, appeals to them.
Don't give up 🎨
💕

[Former-Member]

A TIME FOR EVERYTHING
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the sun.
A time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time for decay and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones, a time to gather,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

[BlueBay]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope and @Fancy_Pants

I am fighting with myself.  It's like the child in me is fighting badly with the adult in me. And who is winning at the moment - the child.  I just can't win, can't do anything right, am a total failure with everything.

That poem last night was exactly how i was feeling.  It just shits me how things 'should be' when they aren't.  It shits me how people just do not get 'mental illness' and I feel that i am pretending to be nice and happy when i am screaming inside.  

I am so sorry, i am ranting and needed to get this out.

ps.  @Faith-and-Hope Jersey hasn't tried prawn crackers yet, next time we have chinese i will give her one to try.

Thank you @Faith-and-Hope @Fancy_Pants for replying, i wanted to write more but i was not in a good frame of mind to be on here last night.  I feel that no one cares, but i am no worse than anyone else on here. 

i am feeling destructive and hopeless; feeling like i can't get through this dark patch at the moemnt.

Going to my GP soon to check my BP and about my body aches. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

I am not an expert at this @BlueBay, so this is only my opinion, and you can ignore it if you want to .... but I am thinking that even as our own children argue with us as their mothers, it's probably like that with our inner child as well, that it wants to be heard, and wants its feelings and ideas noticed and appreciated.

Maybe your adult self can talk to your inner child the way we talk to our offspring, just acknowledging that your inner child is feeling frustrated, and confused, and as if you can't do anything right .... it sounds like you need soothing at that level inside .... 

What used to soothe your own children when they were growing up @BlueBay ?  Did you rock them in your arms and sing to them ?  If the weather isn't too bad where you are, maybe walk to a playground and sit on the swings, and sway backwards and forwards a bit, and hum a tune that you might have used to soothe one of your small children, or even one of your favourite songs now .... or listen to a song on headphones ....

I hope that doesn't sound silly to you @BlueBay.   It's something I do for myself, because I recognise that I am made up of a whole set of different stages inside, and caring for my younger self inside me is important, as well as acknowledging who I have grown into now ....

I hope that helps you @BlueBay

Big hugs ...

❤️💜💗

[BlueBay]

Thank you @Faith-and-Hope

I do understand and get what you're saying, doesn't sound silly.  When I went to bed last night I rocked myself to sleep.  And I can remember very clearly that that is what i used to do when i was a teenager.

I need to be kinder and nurture my inner child like I did to my own children.  

I am doing a yoga class tomorrow morning after my therapy session.

Hugs to you too xxxooo

[Former-Member]

Hang in there @BlueBay, 💕

[Tyler77]

Anyone else notice that their medication interfers with the creative process of writing?

I have noticed that when I go unmedicated for awhile, I can write intensely emotional pieces, But when medicated, those emotions get quited down so much, its hard to even feel them.  I don't consider myself a artist, but I do consider myself to have some artistic skills and traits, all of which go out the window when on Antipsychotics or other mood stablizers.  On the one hand, I am not so volitile in my moods and the emotions are not that intense but doesn't that come at a cost to great artwork?  A common defense I use on my psychiatrist, is that im not MI i am a artist and I just feel more intensely and thouroughly than other people.  Anyways, I was just wondering if anyone else expierences these artist dry spells when they are on antipsychotics or mood stablizers...

[Former-Member]

Absolutely!!!

[BlueBay]

I want to write something about my head in a spin - but i can't work out what to write.  It's not clear and it's not coming out with my words.